Right now we are on vacation and tomorrow (Thanks Giving day) we will take our family to Disneyland. An adventure that Hannah has been talking about all week and we will finally embark on.
I feel very blessed for the opportunity to share this experience with my family but mostly I am just very happy to be with the people I love. Its the special moments that I look forward to now. Like when we're all crammed into our hotel bed keeping cozy and reading stories, laughing and just being together. Or for those stolen glances I get to see ever so often of my daughters having fun with one another and having no cares in the world. Just pure love and kindness with one another, big sister to little sister.
As my 15 year old comes closer to her future plans and goals I try to stay in a place of gratitude that allows me to be happy and in the moment. Its these memories that I will always have and cherish forever. Plus I hope I am giving my children these memory files too.
And for my wonderful husband who works hard so that these opportunities are available to us. For his dedication to his family and all the behind the scene things that he does to make our lives easier. I am forever grateful that he was brought into my life
for us to be together and raise our daughters.
The last few months have been really challenging with Hannah. And many days I have been angry with autism and where it has put us. But then I look at that beautiful smiling face that calls me "mama" daily and those tender loving arms that wrap around me to show me her love and some how I make it through another day.
I am very Thankful, and want to pass that forward.